It creeps in like a subtle draft. It shivers up my spine and into my mental awareness. It happens when I take a cursory glance around me. It happens at my job, at the gym, when I read a great blog post, when I read a great memoir, or come across a cool website.
Everyone else is more awesome than me.
When did this happen? Why didn’t I think of that idea? Why am I not doing the things that I believe I would really rather be doing (…if I did not need my 9-5 job). What if I quit my job and became a stay at home mom, THEN I would do all of things I have been putting off until “someday”. Of course these are lame, lame, lame excuses.
The reality is that those AWESOME people are awesome AND they are just people, like you and me. When I find myself drifting into the territory of envy, I remind myself that (1) my thoughts are not reality and (2) this is a good example of my faulty thinking and I should not give merit to these silly lies. While it may be true that I procrastinate about my life, and it may be true that I live in the ‘someday’, I am very aware of these weaknesses and the faulty ideas that align themselves. And sometimes I think… What am I waiting for? I am awesome too.
What holds you back? What makes you awesome? I would love to know.