I was feeling the itch. Change was looming from the corner of the June full moon and beckoning me to embrace the shadowy illumination in full trust. I was feeling a phantom pull; a deep knowing that as the next decade edged closer, I was again molting my exoskeleton and coming more fully into my own.
Being the type of person who NEVER makes a small change, once my mind has sorted the details, I hone in with laser focus and confidence. And so my 4th donation to Locks of Love was completed.
With the freedom that comes with short hair and wind on my neck, I embraced the change and dove head first into summer. I was craving connection. Connection with friends. Connection with nature. And connection with myself.
I planned a hiking trip with friends. I joined the summer reading group at my local library. I picked strawberries for the first time. I also planned an Ice Cream party to host our friends and their kids at our house. Beleive it or not, this will be a first for me! I have never hosted a party at our home before.
It’s been a whirlwind 6 weeks leading to the eve of 40. So on the precipece of entering my 5th decade on this planet, I dove in. I took the day off from work to spend time with friends and time with my toddler. It was nourishing and perfect.
On my big day, I woke up 2 hours before my official birthtime, got on my running gear, packed my 3 yr old in the jogger stroller and set off to push through my 3.2 mile run. I felt strong, confident, and off to a good start.
Remember earlier when I mentioned that I NEVER make small changes? Well…I am happy say that I also entered my next decade 24 weeks pregnant with baby girl #2.
Turning 40 isn’t bothering me one bit. I was glad to have the searching and uncertainlty of my 20’s behind me and now I am happy to have planted roots in my 30’s and am looking forward to growing them deeper.
Here’s to a new decade, growth, and evolution.
Mrs. Mother Dirt (a.k.a: The Very Hungry Pregnant Lady)